it ended...........

and left me in the cold.

I guess I deserved it because I had been complaining about wanting it over so I could have more time for MYSELF being the selfish BIA that I am..so I did it, I practiced, I read, I searched, I cleaned, I thought, I committed!!

Then the time was coming and I knew it was coming so I prepared..Jason & I, we worked together at 1st only once a week at my place, in addition to the 2 days a week on Madison Ave. But as time got closer he came over on Friday, then again on Sunday before the Jay-Z concert, we met again on Monday at Madison Ave. and we had to put it all out there for everyone to see..I WAS slowly becoming Velma..I KNEW the more time I spent with her the more she would grow on me, I on her and we would slowly connect. Once more on Tuesday we met for something like 3 hours we went over every detail combing it with one of the Nix combs that white girls use when they get lice hahaha...

I could feel the pressure mounting because even though I had a long weekend due to URGE moving to 6, I sprung up sick after a long night at the Penthouse Suite at The Times Hotel blabbling about industry ISH with my fam C-Note and Miss Tessa..that girl can BLOW.. it was for Chungy but whatever I was once again on my Southern Comfort and Cola, stumbling to Broadway..hopping in the Expo..off to the BX we head..dancing in front of the mirrors on my walls..steamy..then the culprit..one fatal lip lock leaves me SICK all weekend EW!!

Then Sunday night I'm in the STREETS..sick, on Nyquil & Airborne ...working for www.Jumpoff.tv entertaining..goofing off..doing what I do best..fooling around with the fans talking to them about Jigga...I LOVE the PEOPLE!

In the early AM I hop into the cab back to BX briefly B4 I have work..We just moved to 6, I know this week is gonna kick my butt...we just moved to 6, I'm sick : (, I have to get VELMA on POINT and then on thursday I'm on another flight to TODAY...oh the sun, finally!

You see Velma has issues; she is beaten by her mother, abandoned by her father and brother, works two jobs to be the only bread winner of her house and support her evil mother, never been alone with a man before, never had a boyfriend, dreams of a family and then she KILLS her mother. She kills her mother and skips off to work as usual. BUT the timely meeting of Frankie on Valentines day sends her into a spiral.

This is the chick I have to play??? I mean this is the chick I have to BECOME???

So I became Velma because I have ISSUES too!

So with the aforementioned drama in MY life and in HERS we bonded and on Wednesday I brought her to life in my final scene.

Now she is over and class is over till september.

What's next??

F.Y.I if this makes no sense please forgive me because I am being scatterbrained and simply spitting out what has been built up in me. Reading previous entries might add insight, reading my myspace blog www.myspace.com/dominiquejackson might add insight...being patient until I pass over this minor roadbump and regain my sanity might be good as well : )