As I sit here

As I sit here I am tired.

Granted I am always tired but this feels like a different tired. I am mentally worn. Generally my fatigue is physical from running around the city, working and pushing myself to the LIMIT. Today I am emotionally drained by Ruth, the character I have been exploring in the play I will be in.

This experience has taught me so many things. It hasn't been only the character work that is draining but the rehearsals every night, the battles with other actors, the frustration at the progress of the production, and the disappointment from opportunities missed in vain while I have been committing myself to this project.

As I sit here I feel good, I think I am ready and I feel pretty grounded in myself and Ruth. Any additional doubt, frustrations or nerves that were once nagging me have been abandoned or taken on as additional obstacle that I have used to serve my fury, Ruth's fury at her life situation. I am not saying that I won't be nervous on show day (that week will be insanely busy) but after my preparation I have to trust that everything will be fine, swallow and jump into the sea that is both extreme focus and part blackout while performing.

Aside from the production I have been lucky to have a great shoot (pix included), meet some new people, see friends, and get out a little but as of now I feel like my life is on HOLD.

Next week will be a new chapter???

Back to soap work....All My Children AND As The World Turns??? Meeting with a Manager??

If this is how my new chapter is starting, I can't wait to see how it progresses.....bf included : )

Kisses,

Nique