Here I am again.......

Back at the office on a Saturday morning.

I didn't really intend to come here, quite honestly if it was my choice I would never enter the island of Manhattan on a weekend BUT that is a rarity. I am always out here whether it is for an audition, shoot, rehearsal, meetings or SHOPPING ; )

Sometime I like to just lay in the bed all day even if I am not sleepy, but just lay and look at the ceiling and daydream while I listen to my music. I might get out of bed to EAT (yummy bread, cheese, olives, oil & vinegar) but I quickly return to the bed and maybe even bring along my little TV so I can watch corny Saturday movies on the WB. I like watching those corny movies because since they are so generic I can really watch the performace rather than being drawn into the movie. This happens rarely although I did have one of those days a couple weeks ago BUT of course that left me a day behind and I spent ALL DAY Sunday trying to do everything for both days.

THE ACADEMY - ACTING

Today I had to be at the Academy to rehearse my final scene and our Professor Burke was there to give us his feedback. After class on Wednesday we praticed again on Thursday and then I had last night to myself. I stayed at the office a little late then went to Sephora to wander around, and then went to Fairway to get my yummy bread, olive oil, balsamic vinegar & olives. I think the fact that the girl who sits by me at work just came back from Barcelona, Spain has affected me thus I have been craving tapas.

Today's rehearsal with Alex went really well. Each day we do it, it is better, we understand the meaning of our text, our relationship is defined, and we become more comfortable with who we are and our actions. I think the scene will turn out really well on Wednesday. We will work on it again on Monday & Tuesday and after that it will be showtime. There were some really real, spontaneous, impulsive, sweet moments between us today and when you feel that you know you are moving in the right direction.......does anything feel better??? (rhetorical question you BONEHEADS, lol).

I also have gone back to my bible "Respect for Acting" by Uta Hagen to review some sections and make sure that I am not forgetting any details. When you first get a brand new script it is easy to overlook many things and go the stereotypical, generic route but I must not do that and continue to do my research and work on myself so when I present every detail of my character is clear, justified, and specific. I have to know who I am in this this world, why am I this way, and what am I doing here.

Tomorrow morning when I wake up, the first thing I will do after I praise God will be to do more character development while I am still fresh and unaffected by the world. I will also have the day to myself to spin around in my living room in the mirrors, sing and dance a la Tom Cruise in that 80's movie. Jason my dancing partner will come over in the afternoon and we will rehearse our routine and everything should be EVERYTHING.

WORLD AIDS DAY

Before I go I wanted to a little tidbit about World Aids Day yesterday. While I was grocery shopping last night I remembered that I never wrote anything about it at ALL. Not that I am responsible for doing that but I WILL make myself responsible to say something. I am not perfect and have never or never will claim to be............ I cannot preach because I make the same mistakes that all humans do, old & young, educated & underpriviledged. But I do feel that I try to make positive decisions, even though sometimes I fail. I say all this to say... people, young & old, let's try to respect ourselves and others so that moving forward we will be in a world where the good isn't mixed in with the bad, and where the good don't have to suffer because of the bad. I know that doesn't make sense but how do I address such a delicate subject when I know I am being watched ("Hi" mommy, "Hi" everyone at work). How do I address a subject when I am not perfect? I try by being honest and trying everyday to be a positive example.

Here is more info:
http://www.worldaidsday.org/default.asp

I know it is scary, I am scared too. But please know your status. Don't worry about the "what if", remember the Lord will NOT give you more than you can handle. Remember this! Either way your life will go on and you will be your same sweet person so don't let fear cripple you, be strong, be smart, be safe. Love you : )

P.S. In case you are wondering, yes I DO take my own advice.

P.P.S. Off to Aveda I go, I know I seems I just went to the spa BUT I must go again. I have to nurture my soul........ & SKIN : )

~dj