And then there was silence..........

I woke up and YES, the sun was speaking to me, the breeze whispering in my ear "welcome back" and my serenity was restored.

"Good morning boo boo"........mmmm lemon cake : )

Last time I was in this position it wasn't until the 3rd or 4th day that I could actually sit back and breathe, wrestle and tickle my baby sister, walk through our commmunity and admire the trees, flowers, fountains, and holiday decorations.

What makes this so different?

Maybe I was already here before I came?? Nah, impossible because even on Friday I was still running around pretending that I didn't have a flight to catch.

Thursday night was another holiday party and after the shrimp, crab, chicken, desserts and WINE *gasp* (lol), I went back to the office to wrap some things up. When I left the city I wanted to be DONE for the most part. Of course I didn't feel completely relieved because honestly I hadn't done any shopping yet but hopefully I would have time to do it, I always had Saturday in FLA.

Secretly my mind had already checked out.......

I get home late again, like everyday and have barely enough energy to wash my face and brush my teeth before I fall into my make shift bed (new years resolution, get FURNITUE, hello???).
Friday morning...POP out of bed LATE as always and...........PACK..crap I haven't packed yet! What am I bringing? Can't forget my books and scripts. I guess some cute outfits and heels because I plan on getting out a little..Ugg, I need a facial why does my face look like this..hahahaha

Train to..........WORK...Uggg, everyone else is on vaca already but of course I am still going to the office because I am ALWAYS there. I basically live there besides the 6 hours I spend in my bed and getting ready each day.

Being the neurotic freak that I am I decide to completely go thru and organzie my whole entire area. Must start the new year off good, and fresh , files and ALL. The office closed early so around 2PM I left to go SHOPPING. I have 2 hours before my facial appointment at 4PM (LOVE the Russians, gotta drop in B4 I leave town). I hit 8th Avenue and duck into a little Middle Eastern style jewelry store. BOOM.. gift for auntie and grammie DONE. After some more running around the city in my little brown boots with a bow.. I head back to midtown.
I know I am so lame for sending these gift late but little bro's please don't hate your big sister...I promise you will like your gift, ok??? Oh c'mon give me a little break, I AM trying. I will make it up later??? (obviously already trying to bribe them with gifts, I SUCK! what kind of sister am I)

Okay, rain 6:30PM..gotta get to Newark NOW. Flight in 3 hours BUT still have plenty of time.
My music helps, J-Dilla, Monica, Ciara..what a mix..........I begin to work on Gwen, me, or the lady I will be on Jan. 6th, in "The Kiss of Wendigo". You can never do too much character development.

What is that I hear, what is that I feel........I AM DONE, and I feel good. This is where I began to feel it and what do you know.... I am relaxed. Sitting on my way to the airport, looking at the city lights at night, I know I am done, and I can let go.

Let go of the city, of 2006, of who I used to be, of everything that I was carrying because it's almost over and I TRIED. I tried to be everything that I should, I tried to do everything I could, I tried to help those I would, and now it's time to reflect and prepare for the next chapter.

I am turning 25.........AHHHHHHHHHH

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