One thing I hate

about myself as a blogger is that my entries are very emotional based........ I have to catch that moment when I have it or it is lost....so then I am left trying to translate the inner dialog that has already occured....

Last night being the nerd that I am I was watching PBS and a special on Walter Cronkite and I was pretty stirred. In some ways I can see things that might seem interesting to others but has no effect on me but then I see something so regular or weird and it really blows me away. I believe that exposure to the things that I am not around frequently tend to grab my attention and really inspire/intrigue me. I am around the Mass Media & Pop Culture so much that it has no effect on me but the most generic, blue collar things leave me reeling...

Call me naive or a simply a product of media brainwashing but that special on good ol' Walt was the TRUTH. More than anything I think I was blown away by seeing the famous footage of JFK getting shot and seeing the blood squirt everywhere, and then Jackie O's reaction. Then seeing the footage of Walt in Vietnam was crazy to me, and how it affected him, the Vietnamese and the American people at that time. When the footage of Watergate and later the Democratic convention came on and I saw all the stupid shenanegans of the U.S. Governmemt I was pretty much glued to the TV in disbelief.

How many times do we have to continue living thru the same scenarios when we know the outcome and should have learned from the past? Past mistakes or experiences are meant to be lessons so we don't do the same thing yet 30 years later we are going through similar situations in the world today.

More and more I realize the things that intrigue me about this and everything else I see that leaves an impression on me is "the human condition". As an acting sutdent what we do is study and present "the human condition" and seeing people as well as experiencing the same emotions is something that never leaves you.

In lighter news I will be taking part in a nice photo shoot this weekend..jazz themed, great photog, great stylist, great makeup & hair...we shall see. I will be SADE!!

Also I met with the Chair of my acting program and finally got my grades from the Spring term. I did pretty well, a B+ in vocal production (need more work on breathing), a B in acting, a C+ in speech (need extra help). It was really nice meeting with Janice because she talked to me about my strengths and weaknesses and recommended that I work with a speech therapist aside from class. Now if you know me you might think my speech is fine but I actually do have a slight speech impediment that is kind of unnoticeable. As far as getting roles to make myself more marketable I need to work on it because it kind of downgrades my situation.

I also need to work on my movement outside of class. Class is actually on hiatus now so I have been using this time to do auditions but instead I should use this time to work with a speech coach and taking more movement classes. I am looking into Black Nexxus and kind of excited to work at Susan's studio because I have heard many great thngs about her. Instead of taking acting...vocal production...movement...These things need to melt together into me and become one discipline instead of each thing separately, thus the extra studying is much needed!!

Instead of going to these 2nd rate auditions I should keep studying so I can go to 1st rate auditions and in the mean time I will study and maybe relax a little bit???

Some theatre.......music.....film......networking.....and food will be on my agenda for the next month until I enter my last term in September of my 1st year. Can you believe I have almost completed the 1st year of my program...?? Next year will be all productions : )

F.Y.I..........catch me in the streets @ .......boxing @ chelsea piers...........the hamptons......wimen event........vh1 kelis.......central park summerstage.........theatre in the park.....maybe seattle??

AUDIO: Listen!!! Late night sentiments..........

A lil sunthin.........

Hello friends & family.........

I am in the midst of a very fierce.........how do I explain???

Well how about you just wait and see : )

I wanted to do a lengthy entry discussing something other than myself for once (sorry if I seem a little self-absorbed, it really isn't my intention, I just try to share with you all but my entries just end up looking very self-EVERYTHING!!).

The bombings in India really disturbed me and then I remember that a couple of weeks ago there was an accident in Valencia, Spain - the city I lived & studied in for a year. In addition there was a guy who blew himself & house up here in NYC so I kind of wanted to comment on that. When the accident happend in Valencia it hit me like a brick but of course I got preoccupied being the mentally challenged individual (break - another idea came, must take notes) my attention span is non-existant, see?? Anyway I just want to give my condolences to the people affected by the Mumbai bombings, accident in Valencia, Spain & mishap in Manhattan.

Zeke de Espana.......ojala que todo este bien : (

~Besitos,

tu Dominica........xoxox

P.S. It's 2:02 in the AM and I am at my OFFICE!! It's sick!!! on a Saturday??????? How am I gonna get home tonight??? O.K. let's not think about it..work....work..work!!

Update: okay now's 3:39AM in the morn..no worries I have a town car coming to get me in 10mins...........gotta luv MTV : )

Oh and here's a preview!!

it ended...........

and left me in the cold.

I guess I deserved it because I had been complaining about wanting it over so I could have more time for MYSELF being the selfish BIA that I am..so I did it, I practiced, I read, I searched, I cleaned, I thought, I committed!!

Then the time was coming and I knew it was coming so I prepared..Jason & I, we worked together at 1st only once a week at my place, in addition to the 2 days a week on Madison Ave. But as time got closer he came over on Friday, then again on Sunday before the Jay-Z concert, we met again on Monday at Madison Ave. and we had to put it all out there for everyone to see..I WAS slowly becoming Velma..I KNEW the more time I spent with her the more she would grow on me, I on her and we would slowly connect. Once more on Tuesday we met for something like 3 hours we went over every detail combing it with one of the Nix combs that white girls use when they get lice hahaha...

I could feel the pressure mounting because even though I had a long weekend due to URGE moving to 6, I sprung up sick after a long night at the Penthouse Suite at The Times Hotel blabbling about industry ISH with my fam C-Note and Miss Tessa..that girl can BLOW.. it was for Chungy but whatever I was once again on my Southern Comfort and Cola, stumbling to Broadway..hopping in the Expo..off to the BX we head..dancing in front of the mirrors on my walls..steamy..then the culprit..one fatal lip lock leaves me SICK all weekend EW!!

Then Sunday night I'm in the STREETS..sick, on Nyquil & Airborne ...working for www.Jumpoff.tv entertaining..goofing off..doing what I do best..fooling around with the fans talking to them about Jigga...I LOVE the PEOPLE!

In the early AM I hop into the cab back to BX briefly B4 I have work..We just moved to 6, I know this week is gonna kick my butt...we just moved to 6, I'm sick : (, I have to get VELMA on POINT and then on thursday I'm on another flight to TODAY...oh the sun, finally!

You see Velma has issues; she is beaten by her mother, abandoned by her father and brother, works two jobs to be the only bread winner of her house and support her evil mother, never been alone with a man before, never had a boyfriend, dreams of a family and then she KILLS her mother. She kills her mother and skips off to work as usual. BUT the timely meeting of Frankie on Valentines day sends her into a spiral.

This is the chick I have to play??? I mean this is the chick I have to BECOME???

So I became Velma because I have ISSUES too!

So with the aforementioned drama in MY life and in HERS we bonded and on Wednesday I brought her to life in my final scene.

Now she is over and class is over till september.

What's next??

F.Y.I if this makes no sense please forgive me because I am being scatterbrained and simply spitting out what has been built up in me. Reading previous entries might add insight, reading my myspace blog www.myspace.com/dominiquejackson might add insight...being patient until I pass over this minor roadbump and regain my sanity might be good as well : )